Otherworlds, Wealth, and Anger

I am my own well, tap, into Chaos. I perceive it as under me, but that’s because it comes via me. It’s a bit kundalini, as well. But it’s there. So close, so always there.

The Summerlands and the Nightlands—they are both there, one becomes the other—distinct but bleeding together. I have glimpsed both, in the past. They are Otherworlds, and I have walked near both and need to understand both better—and how I touch them, can find myself there, how I connect to them.

I need to project again. Explore and learn more of these places. (more…)


Aether, Aeons, and the Psychic Censor

One thought I’ve had re: Carroll’s idea of the Aether is that it’s an attractive idea for an aesthetic and causal medium/realm—and it makes a certain intuitive sense, but I wonder if it ultimately has to make sense at all. After all, if reality is paradigmatic, wouldn’t accepting/believing in Aether be enough?

The Chaosiphere is ultimately a paradigmal rift and egregore created and charged to be a fissure into Chaos and potentiality, to destabilize a local area for magical (and ideological) purposes. This is an interesting idea. Certain technologies may also serve a similar, though limited, function. (more…)

Angus, Chaos, Carroll, Kia, Magic

The trick for me talking to Angus or others is to be relaxed, meditative, and calm—I must set aside my mental distractions. Then he is right there. Well enough to talk to.

The first thing about alamûri is to ask questions. Questions suggest paths towards answers. Or at least good questions do. We have to ask questions and seek after answers. We have to situate ourselves within the contexts we find ourselves within.

Angus asks, “Where are you?” (more…)

More Fire in the Earth

I called FitE. So much drama preceded something I should have done long ago. But such is the nature of the will, I suppose.

I finished Hine’s book. I have very much been his idea of a chaos mage.

SS showed me that [WTAW] responds to meditation—stilling the mind. Rather than the churning chaos it becomes a gently roiling cloud vortex, a storm cell that isn’t out of control, punctuated at times by flashes of light and inspiration. (more…)

Gods & Meditation

I spoke and saw my father today—as I meditated, in the heart, in that time of comparative stillness, he came to me. I cannot think I am here, at this point, merely through happenstance and haphazard choices on my part. I am here to find and to make meaningaladir, we are—and chance and my Wyrd have brought me to this point. Awakened choice is—and should—be my guide. I have pursued forms of knowledge and wisdom almost unheard of back home. (more…)

Accidental Tulpa and Fire in the Earth

Hine points to relaxation as an essential skill for Chaos Mages to cultivate—itself a magical act.

I spent tonight meditating, aligning.

I called SS and talked sigil magic. [WTAW] -> something associated with SS. More active “the arrow of time!”

I didn’t use incense—I think it’s been exciting my allergies—I also think the WTAW help invoke the presence and blessings of the Guardians with full calls. (more…)

Fire in the Earth, BABALON, towards Chaos

My visualization skills improve again, and in doing so, I think my energy work improves. If nothing else, aligning the triple soul falls into this work. The specific energies are different—

The fire from above is the breath of _____, my connection to the greater cosmos and self, the raw force of potentiality (but not quite Storm, I think). (Not that concentrated, refined yet.) But refined isn’t right—primal and physical.)

The energy of thought/perception, this is more what I used to call “Light.” (more…)