Water Maker & Black Mother

Part of the lesson of [WTAW] and [WTAW] is gendered in nature—learning to be aware of those aspects of myself. But the point I think I have been missing re: [WTAW] is that I cannot dominate or control my wholeness, the waters within. They will escape the vessel, must escape the vessel—the water in the vessel must go somewhere. But I try to keep it all contained, out of sight, tears and all. Emotions and all. I can’t—shouldn’t—do that. I deny vast depths of myself in trying. I try to shout it down, talk it away, or focus the flame on a tiny spot, but I end up missing the quiet parts and aspects and currents. (more…)

Guardians Continued

[WTAW]Expansive of mind, self, perception, conception—consciousness, spirit, —seeing a larger world/universe

[WTAW]See Thorn’s idea of walking and fire. ShF and this wyrm are about walking in truth, especially against self-deception. This is the personal truth he represents. But he is far more the Vision Unclouded—

[WTAW] is Vision Expansive and Free and Open, but [WTAW] is about seeing clearly.

_______ pointed out that [WTAW] and [WTAW] remind him of cave painting and mandala motifs. [WTAW] also evokes the sign and shape of a lamp. And that is what the rune calls—that we must be lamps of truth, casting light and clarity into the world and most importantly ourselves. We must shine light into our darkness and confront what we find. We may not know what we see, but we must be truthful with what we do find. (more…)

The Wyrms that Are Wise & Experientiality

G. told me of the language of dragons—they are the wyrms that are wise—their language is experience, are experiences. Not words, per se. Runes/sigils point to experiences after a fashion—realities. Not even narratives at the base, but that’s there. It’s hard to “hear” him when he talks like that, in the wyrm tongue.

It is akin to feeling a rumble in the mind, of someone whispering just beyond your range. To help “hear” better, I am to meditate upon runes/wyrms that are wise->the forms on the previous page are what the Four offer me in this regard. The FUTHARK could also work, but G. felt they aren’t as effective for this purpose.

The lesson of the shadows is prep. (more…)

The Goddess & Feri Guardians

The secret I have been pursuing—the Goddess—she is not in the light, not in the statue, not even in the shadow, but the shadow is the path/portal to her, through the moving mind—the symbol points to the reality, or helps fashion it. The T.S. lies beyond the Shadow. Representation lies towards realness, or at least lends it form, substance, vis. (more…)

Thought-Gods & Daemons

Behind the petty facades of the everyday, behind the numbers around us, the prices and wages and statistics, behind the logos and corporate sigils, there lurk dangerous chimerae, egregores, and gods.

These gods are new American gods—which we seek to export and convert—our national spirit that we try to foist upon others, the Mickey, the McD, the soda, the movie stars, the t-shirts—these are intelligences. They are strange, dangerous, cranky things.

They are the outlying egregores, the thought-gods that the fans, users, consumers, believers create, empower, and inhabit. These are the most visible aspect. (more…)